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This morning
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From: stan v
Date: Saturday, November 16, 2013
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I think perhaps this is the last time I write. I felt today, for the first time that I am completely
disconnected from you. I don't feel any connection. None. Before I was so tuned into your
energy that I swear I knew your smallest joys, little sadnesses... I felt them as if we were one
person. But now I feel nothing. I believe there was a time when you did love me. It was then that
we connected. It seems now that you have shut that off completely. We are now separate.
Perhaps you needed this. Maybe this is what you required to be happy. I hope it has worked. For
me, I am at peace. In the past I would have ►ocked myself away for months to reflect, find peace,
recover, and heal my heart. But now, knowing that you have spent little time before getting back
into life, I feel inspired to do the same. So I have. And yes, of course, life is beautiful and easy.
No reason to be sad or regret. But still, you are missed. I don't love easily and despite meeting
people who are in many ways more appropriate for me, I still have a haunting memory of your
laugh. There is a word in Brazilian Portuguese that doesn't have an equivalent in English which
captures my feeling - saudadc - a beautiful, deep, melancholy, nostalgic memory.
With deep love and admiration I say goodbye. Best of luck to you. Every possible wish for joy
and happiness.
And to quote Mayakovsky: Let the last of my words cushion your footfall as you depart.
Stan
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